Friday, November 07, 2008
12:45 AM Y
Post title :
♥ You'll never know the real me.
ok... jolyn tells me to update about the sentosa outing... i dun have the pics, so maybe it will be posted on the class blog?generally, me and april were early, boer was on time, and threst was LATE! haha... ok, that doesn't matter, but yah, suppose to meet at 10am, in the end we reach sentosa at 11plus? around there lah.. generally we were really lucky cos there was thunder and lightning for quite some time in the afternoon, but it only rained when we were quite ready to leave the place. yup, it was fun, food was yummy and interesting things happened. (thanks a lot to jas, jo, kat and april for those good food! hee... realise that i'm the only girl that didn't contribute... but at least i provided straw mats to put those food and bags right?)10 out of 23 people went(aaron, april, boer, jas, jo, jun xiang, karl, kat, ming han and me!)we played volleyball, frisbee, ate and took photos. most of them also went into the water to play. the guys(or at least karl) "made new friends". they played with some hua yi sec people who's definitely more pro! so like throw face lah... cos actually i think none of us really knows how to play volleyball. (that's also why i'm getting blue blacks on my arms) yup... most of the time there is spent playing volleyball... then i think what's interesting is that at one point, we lost the volleyball(as in really the ball). so all the while we thought that it's the thing that we see floating far away in the sea.... spent some time figuring out what to do to get it back cos it's from boer's hostel. in the end they found out fron the lifeguard that the thing is some kind of device, not the ball... so searching starts. the outcome was that someone took it, but we got it back. they kind of eyed on that person cos i think that person did say that the ball was picked up. wasn't sure earlier that it's the right ball cos the marker ink sort of faded.anyway, it was really hot that day, so i got sunburnt. it felt so great when i was hugging the pack of ice back from 7-eleven la. oh ya! i suddenly rmb something. jo and kat were acting like bimbos even before we leave harbourfront for sentosa. luckily i was save when i headed home with them. they were too tired to act. that's all that i can say about the outing... the pics taken would be more interesting.went for lunch celebration as a class today at swensen's(orchard) cos everyone is finally freed from PW! actually, i dun have much to say abt it, cos it's just eating, talking and taking photos... anyway, kalr drank a bit of a disgusting drink because he was attempting to xian hai wei ping. he failed because he forgot the number that he himself signalled(playing zong ji mi ma by the way). this is called retribution. after lunch, we sort of went our own ways, cos we couldn't compromise on what to do. the guys want to play LAN but not the girls. yup.Personal thoughts: someone is really making me feel horrible. someone successfully makes me feel that i'm a terrible person, i'm a bully, i'm a badie, i'm so unlikeable. i feel like crying... that someone was still making me happy a few days ago, and now that someone is making me really sad... am i that bad? am i really bullying people and not realizing it? i think i'm changing into someone that i don't know. i have no idea what i'm thinking, feeling and doing. i dun understand myself anymore... maybe this is why zhiwei said she think i've changed... what am i suppose to do??? how can i change myself back? am i really scary? why do i always fail in building good rapport with the opposite sex? am i constantly giving people wrong impressions? or are those impressions so obvious that people can tell but i choose not to believe it's true? my heart and brain is definitely not working together...
